Abuse ? Alterations and Understanding .

Finished Project [ STEP UP ] surprisingly early , back in office and Bloggin at 1345 hrs . just goes to show a concentrated and well orchestrated effort can produce insane results . 10 names each , quality ones , and for wing , this number means 30 .

Today i witnessed MANY things in that few hours at Raffles place ...
i've seen how the sky lights up in the CBD area .
i've seen how members in the family try to egg/urge each other on towards success .
i've seen how , for a cause greater than themselves , La Famille's members accomplish Breakthroughs Unknowingly.
i've seen how much it must mean to feel wanted , needed , belonged .. what a strong motivating force it can be .
i've also seen what i foresee to be a danger in misinterpretation , or to some , denial .

Let's address the last point first as i wish to see what the rest of La Famille has to say before i add anything .

Now , not unlike Paedophiles , Soothsayers and Distorters of Truth , the False Prophets , some might add ... and we're REALLY talkin about any Great Beliefs , Great religions here ... The initial Doctrines , Teachings , bestowed on by enlightened masters , teachers alike face this same problem ... When the Taught or students here reproduce or worst still , propagate the wisdom of these teachings or knowledge in their daily lives ... They inevitably change it to suit THEIR purpose at that moment they wish to use said teachings , inevitably with their own emotions thrown in .

I too , not unlike the Rest of everyone else there at project [Step up ] today , attended Mr Bernard Ho's Guerrila sales intensive training sessions . So i too recall , as i'm sure everyone does ... His empowerment which gave rise to reminders such as " i'm not obligated to anyone " or things like " i don't have to blame myself " even things such as "there's no need for me to feel sorry/ inadequate " .

I'm gonna go in for a longshot here and assume , as i will need to consult and clarify with him later , whether these sentences are to ReLEASE us from our personal shackles , our INCAPACITATING balls and chains . It's my guess that it's not to Release us TOTALLY from ANY guilt whatsoever in life when we suspect or half suspect that we've done wrong to someone or when that someone comes up to us and tells us how much our actions have hurt them .

No doubt that ttheir above-mentioned actions are ONLY a reflection of their emotions and themselves and i don't have to feel sad or troubled over it but maybe and just maybe Guilt , sorrow and Conscience protects us from repeating future actions that give rise to similar , if not exactly same scenarios .

Because ... so does Pain , Literally speakin .. Through our Natural self preservation impulsive response , we shy away from pain . Otherwise , whats to stop anyone from depriving a person of sleep , work , pay just because he's in a position to do so? What can we use in our Arsenal to stop a man from killing an innocent ? To dissuade him from pulling a trigger or jumping to his death with his hostage in a hostage situation ?

Not feeling Guilty and Not feeling any remorse can be argued by some , to be a gift embedded in the few , yet coveted by THE many ... perhaps THE all . Society and Psychologists have a name for these blessed people who feel absolutely nothing in cutting up a human being ? child ? or other cruel acts of torture meant to inflict as much pain as possible to their victims ... any guesses what they call all these gifted people ?

While this is a Reflection of just my feelings , no one needs to agree or Disagree with it .
Now let's presume i was in a position of influence , and i would like to call myself an influencer .
I'd like to think that my actions / inputs / behavior is important to someone and because of the fact that Lately , i've fallen into a Ditch in my work or life and i wear a frown consistently and someone comes up to me and asks out of concern is anything wrong ? well i can choose to do or say 2 things :

1) Mind your own biznez and Flick them off .
2) I'm troubled and i need help .

And presuming again and this is my take on the matter ... if lets say everyone REALLY did want to help ME out , help me realise why i couldn't do certain things that i used to or i think should be able to .
They set out , in all earnesty to show me their own methods for accomplishing the same thing i set out to do .

In this case , canvassing at 730 and missing my Famille's meeting because i feel i didn't do a good enough job so i wish to continue ... that's MY reason anyways .

They repeat same scenario for me , try to be in my shoes and all i need to do in return , is that i observe , best i can , their individual mannerisms , styles and effort .
Put simply They work i just eye power for the next 5 hours !

While these same , helpful family members of mine slog in the rain/sun tryin to prove to me that this career isn't that tough actually ... Maybe all i can repay them with is understanding and empathy ? a silent acknowledgement , a sombre realisation that my family is tryin to help me and show me that i can do this ?
i KNOW for a fact however , that all they want , is to see me happy and stop draggin that frown around ... and see me bring in the numbers that can make me proud and happy yet again in my work .

Maybe , in Retrospect , Esther could've tried to pretend to be "remorseful" , "feel a li'l bad" , " a li'l guilty " ... dare i ask ... " a wee bit Grateful " for everyone's concerted effort to push me , nudge me on ? Not answerin the phone like she's just had the very , very Bestest day in her life ? Full of energy , excitement and zeal ?
While the rest are tryin to cope with sickness , fatigue ?


But oh well , That's just me , and our job DOES requires us to answer like everything's peachy ... So the True question is would you have done things differently if you were in those same shoes ? or the same ? i wouldn't know about you guys ... but i know what i'd do .... I'd answer the phone later or " i'll call you later " ... even if i had to demonstrate the same gusto cos my job requires me to and "what a WONDERFUL day this has been !" mannerisms . i'd prbably wait till these tired guys and girl are no longer there for me to ... consciously or not ... rub their faces in it .
[ put bluntly ].

Perhaps we should all try this , "Guiltless cos it rewards nothing , no remorse cos it's counterproductive routine ? We'll have a lot of " why you wasting time here when your time has come and gone ??" , "you're a hasbeen " or "you're less productive than me , this family needs all the positivity it can get now so why don't you leave your frown at home ?or yourself for that matter ? you're spoiling my mood ."

Guilt , Remorse , Tears serves NO purpose ..... perhaps IF and ONLY IF someone repeats , reproduces said actions time after time , repeats frustrated looks and or complains time after time without an INTERNAL agreement to Fix and/or change standard , Quality of life .

Ask Bernard if he's got any Regrets , Felt any Guilt , entertained ANY Doubt over these past two years for ANYTHING , ANYTHING at all even if not related to work and i'm PRETTY sure ... The answer could be a ... " yes" ? After all , it's widely Believed that Tears are a Gift from a higher source ... It lets not just us ... But others Know ... that we're hurting .

STill ... Also can be exploited and used as weapon . kekekekeke !