Actions speak louder than words .

"Very well said Kid . Proud of you .You've worked very smart till now and last year in the month of december i stood testimony to your Brilliant hard work ... and again sometime this year in March or April ... problem is ... you *fizzle* out ..."

The above is my entry on Esther's Blog .

Here's some takes i have on yesterdays events .
Esther ,
you need to maintain that internal Drive and motivation . Which you're not gonna have if you CONTINUOUSLY and INCESSANTLY give reasons to yourself why you're not great YET when you're working amidst such Greats as Cara Liu and Lam Yi lee .

Put Lauren , Danny , Kristy or John with them [ so named here because these are the "i want to be number one " members of our Famille ] and i Guarantee you they'll try to match [ initially ] then attempt to beSt these legends [eventually ].Perhaps it's time to switch your single spot out and request permission for one of these 4 to start joining them for activities instead .
It especially frightens me when you seem to not just settle with the mindset of being second best but Third even as was demonstrated by your comments and questions recently such as " ... will you be ok with it if i'm ok with Lauren being Number 1 , Kor ? "

Go read Lauren and Kristy's exchange .See with your own eyes how Kristy , a newcomer then , aspires , DARES ... to be the BEST and how Graciously , and out of so much concern and LOVE Lauren in return welcomes Kristy's Lofty aspirations and says , in not so many words ..." bring it on "


Reasons and comments such as "they have done it before " , "i have still so much to learn" , "EVENTUALLY i'll be like them " or "they're there already " are some No-Nos that i hope i never hear you say . You make them sound like they're so distant .


Or like some of the words we heard in your APS speech earlier this year " i'm young ", " just graduated " , " dunno how i did it even tho i'm all alone and no one to run with me "
**cries on stage**.


When you requested one day after you returned from FASTTRACK to speak to zinc , you cried and said you envied teams like ALvis Thor's , Grace Kong's cos they go for trips together , work together but here , it was just you .Ask zinc NOW , how she feels in hindsight ?

Oh how you wished you had what they had , a team that works and plays ,LAUGHS and CRIES , suffers and celebrates together . EVERYTHING ... TOGETHER .

While this Famille is bonding , starting to form .. we're still growing ... still in our infancy , still fragile ... and in need of each and everyone we can get , every iota of strength we MUST muster to help keep it together and strong ... WHERE have you been , Dear Esther ? WHERE ARE you still ?

You who seemed so much to have wanted a family of your own .Seemed to have dreamt the same dreams Lisa , Zinc , Wing , Lauren , Alan , Kristy , Danny , Kristen , Phyllis Dreamt .
YOU as part of the pioneers who are tryin everything they can to grow US ... WHERE were you ? Where ARE you still ?

i don't see you joining the activities your famille is running ... do you ?


Should you miss your goals at the end of this year again , just like you did last year ... you Don't need a THOUSAND reasons so Stop Lying to yourself , victimising yourself , Esther . Stop Giving Excuses , Stop with the Reasons , Stop with the Leeway to yourself so that incidents like
[I am sorry that I forgot to prepare the survey forms that caused a delay in the start of the project. We only got to start at close to 8.30am. ] can Stop happening .


If you're truly grateful for our efforts and care , would you forget ? it hints , like so many things you do .. of lip service ... nothing more , nothing less .


IF you truly want to succeed , you just need that ONE reason ... no need for external reminders , reasons , factors etc etc ....


Remember this ?
" if i fail to hit STARCLUB by end of this year ... i'll leave . "
** looks around room staring straight into everyone's eyes in a display of sheer Grit and/or determination** "
cos to this day , i remember my moment .

"i will have ...." . "i will attain ......." or " they can only hope to contain me , they cannot stop me " . These are what are known as moments of Brilliance by the entertainment industry , moments worth an oscar nomination ... Difference is .. in life ... whether you get the OSCAR or not depends on your performance thereafter ... First class ? Lacklustre ? or worst still ... simply Amateur acting , OVERacting at times ... and missing the "feel of the moment "


Your comrades' weak smiles yesterday didn't mean [ MY what a bestest day in the whole wide world !!! ] , they meant as long as some of us get something outta this , this day and my personal sacrifices have NOT been in vain . i seriously doubt one mirrors those expressions with
[ Yo!!! how's everything man ? cool !!! Let's hang out on Friday !!! ONs ?!?! ] ~ Classic lack of SQ , EQ , empathy , sympathy . Some of us would even suspect you did that on purpose , if we didn't know you better .


They who're TRULY sad lets few know they are .

They who're TRULY adamant about success focus on mirroring the successful .Not on how successful/clever they already are themselves .

They who're TRULY kind wish to reach out to all with their kindness but yet inevitably always seem to play down what they do or try to hide said acts of kindness .

HOWEVER ...They who WANT everyone around them to think ... THINK !... that they're Stressed and Sad , wear it on their faces and actions , in the hopes someone asks them why ,so that they may begin their stories and Fables . Legends even , of how Great they once WERE , just as so many taxi drivers do .


They who demonstrate wisdom often seek to share love , joy and concern with ALL or lessons and means in their attainment ... falls , woes and worries ...Those are their selfishly Guarded PERSONAL realities .

Tomorrow's OUR small little meeting ... make your own choices ... and pay for their consequences like an adult would . Should .

Respect has to be EARNED , it cannot be demanded .
There's NO seniority here in this Famille .

The ones who constantly try to lift this Famille to Greater heights and increase overall or individual Productivity with their efforts and ideas would UNdoubtedly draw respect and appreciation , admiration from the rest who're striving , fighting for that same dream .

Similarly if there was anyone who Betrays , sabotages our efforts or constantly try to show they're better than the rest of us by only working with other's who seem to be more familiar with the path to success yet brings nothing back to help their peers ... well let's just say we aren't blind to that either .

Life's a show , an act , a play or Drama and the world it's stage , like so many greats have said .

It's sad when so many aspiring actors OVERACT ... becomes UNnatural and sometimes even ... spoils the whole damn movie .